Dread /dred/

noun - great fear or anxiety that something bad or unpleasant will happen…

verb - to be seized or arrested by fear or anxiety for an unpleasant circumstance

When I was younger, it felt like i could change reality if i dreamed hard enough,

At night, as i drift to sleep beneath the glow of liquid crystal,  

My thoughts would culture and bead,

rolling from my eyes into the ocean of stars

And somewhere among those shining isles, 

a pearl would drop,

And offer an escape from this isolation.

When did I first realize I’m on the wrong side of the glass?

When did I loose my footing,

and sink into the abyss,

while holy palmers' dance above the light?

My chest aches for air too,

but I'm far below the surface.

Another irritation engulfed in the datastorm.