Dread /dred/
noun - great fear or anxiety that something bad or unpleasant will happen…
verb - to be seized or arrested by fear or anxiety for an unpleasant circumstance
When I was younger,
it felt like I could change reality if I dreamt enough.
At night, as I wandered the world’s byways
beneath the cool glow of liquid crystal,
My thoughts would begin to culture and bead.
They rolled from my eyes to the ocean of stars,
and whispered this wish to the heavens:
that somewhere among those accrete shining isles,
a pearl would drop from night’s dark waves
and offer a reprieve
from this shallow Hell.
When did I first realize I was on the wrong side of the glass?
When did I lose my footing,
and sink into the dry abyss,
while holy palmers' dance above the light?
I dreamed of joining them as an icon;
unrivaled luster,
prestige worthy of a precious gemstone,
things that could lift me from the trash heap
blocking the horizon.
My chest aches for air too,
but I'm far below the surface’s lights;
It barely reaches the hole in my heart
where I chose to hide.
To hide from the world,
and the ones who hate me,
the ones whose silent stares burn like venom.
Who am I?
Another irritation caught in this noisy datastorm.
