Dread /dred/

noun - great fear or anxiety that something bad or unpleasant will happen…

verb - to be seized or arrested by fear or anxiety for an unpleasant circumstance

When I was younger, it felt like i could change reality if i dreamed hard enough,

At night, as i drift to sleep beneath the glow of liquid crystal,  

My thoughts would culture and bead,

rolling from my eyes into the ocean of stars

And somewhere among those shining isles, 

a pearl would drop,

And offer an escape from this isolation.

I watch

behind these glass eyes

as every crevice is rendered lifeless, 

a flesh doll tossed to and fro

how many bodies have I seen broken and mangled

how many lives leaked from above,

staining the light with their pain?