Dread /dred/

noun - great fear or anxiety that something bad or unpleasant will happen…

verb - to be seized or arrested by fear or anxiety for an unpleasant circumstance

When I was younger, it felt like i could change reality if i dreamed hard enough,

At night, as i drift to sleep beneath the glow of liquid crystal,  

My thoughts would culture and bead,

rolling from my eyes into the ocean of stars

And somewhere among those shining isles, 

a pearl would drop,

And offer an escape from this isolation.

I drown inside every pool.

I drown inside each shallow prison.

How am I meant to go on?

Should I fling my lungs open, 

And let the void enter me?

Should I release these ballast dreams,

And let them free my burning insides?

Would that be enough? 

These gilded whispers,

Will they nucleate my wounded heart?